Hey guys, today's post will be a little different. And I've been wanting to talk about this for awhile now. But what has been holding me back is that I'm afraid you guys would judge me or make nasty comments such as me being an attention seeker/ fishing for comments etc etc..
But since you guys are my readers, and some actually genuinely cares. I'll just talk about it then. This IS my blog after all. Not everything is about what I'm doing everyday, I am able to share my feelings here as well right?
So anyway, I've been feeling really down lately. Hence, less updates and all. No, this has nothing to do with any relationship problems. But probably insecurity and my self esteem. I've been talking about leaving the bloggersphere because of many differently reasons. There are many bloggers out there in Singapore and I'm really just average compared to the rest. Sometimes I feel that, I have absolutely have nothing to offer. I only have average looks and not really a fantastic character to WOW people. I don't have pretty big eyes, natural parallel or even double eyelids, I have a small not-that-great nose, thin lips, a high forehead and very little hair, unlike some (or should I say most). And its really hard to feel good about myself.. Which makes me feel like giving up.
Sometimes I feel that I just got lucky being here and having people read my blog.
I feel so blank and blue as I type this. But there was really much more to say than this. But I supposed its normal to feel that "oh I'm not good enough" feeling once in awhile. But this time it's really getting me.. And all I want is to feel a little appreciated. It's been so long since I had this feeling that I've forgotten how to over come it. And I just want it to go away.
Sorry for the boring post, I really had no one else to turn to regarding this. Cus not many would understand. So I thought maybe typing here talking to myself would make me feel better.. Until next time.
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