20212.. we're almost half way there already! and last night before i went to bed, i wanted to do a blog post. but i was pretty carried away with my game and it became too late to do a post! so i decided to do it today instead.
what i had in mind was just talk about my "transformation". and i don't mean transforming in just that physical sense like that post i did here. but i mean in a sense like, me growing up? story of my life, here it is. nothing i've ever blogged about. and i'm just gna be completely truthful.
okay.. lets see.. lets start from 2008!
erm... where do i begin.. this is the most decent photo of myself from 2008. mainly because the rest are so gross. urgh.. the thought of how i was like before just gives me the creeps. LOL but apart from my piercings and mad character, i think i can say that this was when i was still really obedient to my parents. i didn't smoke/ drink/ party, totally innocent. i even abided by my parent's curfews.
early 2009 (when i first met Marvin too)
08 december to 09 march. while i was just learning to get my freedom from my parents, i already earned myself a really bad reputation after i was brought out into the real world. i thought like playing around would be fun. but it sure did land me into a hell lot of shit and i was literally hated.
mid 2009
my "infamous" reputation started to die down. and i started to learn how to party and drink. underage/ legal aged parties, and got my first and second tattoo. on my way to being rotten. haha but i guess i could say 2009 wasn't as mad as 2010 or 2011 since i was just partying through out the year... don't worry, i'll get to it!
end 2009,
i learned how to smoke, and got into a relationship, and it caused my and my family to fall out. and every time i came home, it was constant hate and anger. the amount of quarrels i had with my mother and father, was crazy. and those were the only times that i was ultimately rude to them. i was really a HORRIBLE child then. i would make my mother cry so often. and i had 0 respect for them. i was never home and i became the kind of person i would hate. AND I DIDN'T KNOW IT.
2010
by the time mid 2010 arrived, i was a full bloom ass hole and was a completely different person. i can't find much pictures off my 2010 year tho. but i guess there's really nothing much to see thou. just me being an ass. i would skip school twice/ thrice a week, fail my papers and i lost almost all my girlfriends.
early 2011
broke up with boyfriend, because i thought i had someone else. but nope, i got played out myself and became miserable. i started to party non-stop, getting drunk or high every chance i had, even if i had school! i started to lose alot of weight, and went to the lowest i've ever been, which was 38kg. i started to hate everyone around me and became anti-social and a very angsty person. and i would isolate myself from time to time. i was really damaged by then. never was i so close to killing myself.
mid 2011
by the time mid 2010 arrived, i was a full bloom ass hole and was a completely different person. i can't find much pictures off my 2010 year tho. but i guess there's really nothing much to see thou. just me being an ass. i would skip school twice/ thrice a week, fail my papers and i lost almost all my girlfriends.
early 2011
broke up with boyfriend, because i thought i had someone else. but nope, i got played out myself and became miserable. i started to party non-stop, getting drunk or high every chance i had, even if i had school! i started to lose alot of weight, and went to the lowest i've ever been, which was 38kg. i started to hate everyone around me and became anti-social and a very angsty person. and i would isolate myself from time to time. i was really damaged by then. never was i so close to killing myself.
mid 2011
i started to talking to marvin again. and we didn't want anything going on between us. so we referred to each other as "emotional comfort." like just a cuddle buddy when you're in need of some love. but we're still allowed to see other people. this was totally disapproved by his friends and other people who knew about it. haha sounds stupid right? but looked how it worked out for me. hehe
end 2011
things started to work out for me, my relationship with marvin was more serious now. no longer just an "emotional comfort." i started changing for a better person i suppose? i kicked my bad habits. tho i took alot of effort, and alot of quarreling just for me to stop. i guess it was worth it? if i didn't stop, i think my kidney could just fail on me. hahaha
early 2012
officially got tgt with mister marvin, i started to be more.. "healthy"? hahaha i started to put on weight, i'm just nice now! and u know what they say about people putting on weight. "its because they have a partner." hahaha
now 2012
i'm very happy and merry. nothing compared to what i was in 2010/ 2011. those were pretty crazy and hectic years... and i would NEVER want to relive those years ever again. but i will admit that those two years taught me the most. but i am still in the process of making up to parents about how i've been. and here are my late new year resolutions which i'm working on :)
1. Quit smoking
2. Stop using vulgarities
3. Get baptized
4. Be more obedient
hahaha i know they seem pretty simple, maybe except for number 1. but i'm done with number 2. and working on number 4. number 3... hmmm i'm still not here yet. but i know i want it!! haha i know this has been a rather draggy and long post. but i felt like it was something interesting for you guys to know about me. this post was pretty personal to me. and i don't often share it. well, hope you liked it! sorry if it was too boring too.
